study mood

its now 1.05 AM.
i dont know why
but suddenly i feel the urge to study!
seriously
tanpa paksaan from anyone
tibe2 ade kesedaran sendiri
(or maybe semangat sebab dh beli buku baru?)
hoh

let me tell u smthng
qla memang semangat bile beli buku
especially buku2 TEBAL
rase mcm budak pndai je

dulu time sekolah..
tengok dlm tv
bdk U pergi lecture pegang buku tebal-tebal
nmpk COOL!
nmpk RAJIN!
nampak mcm BUDAK PANDAI!

but now..
qla pegi clss x bwk buku pon
just handout
itu pon dh berat + malas

huh
jadi perhiasan jelah atas study table

im wondering whether i'll be able to finish reading them all
OR
maybe "finish looking at the pictures inside"

;D