Cita or Cinta

Hye ,

Exactly a week to go . At this very hour next week, i'll be in the plane, probably having the meal on board. Or mungkin juga pilot dah bagi annc "we'll be landing at bla bla bla international airport in 15 minutes" .

CUT !

At the moment , the excitment that i had earlier about this going abroad to further studies and duduk negara orang and start a new life semua isnt just here yet . Nak cakap tak ada perasaan apa-apa at the moment tipulah. Sebab lagi dekat date nak pergi, lagi macam-macam perasaan yang datang . Lagi macam-macam benda yang terfikir.

And i've been wondering jugak kenapa past few days ni semua orang nak cakap pasal future. Future as in jodoh , jodoh , jodoh . Is it time already for us-a 20 years old teenager to start taking the "future life" matter seriously ? Macam exam invigilator selalu cakap "Okay masa dah time ". Betul ke dah time ??

I haven't even start my degree yet . I have a super looooong 5 killing years waiting . So how ?

I do admit that me myself pon ada jugak berangan-angan this and that . Talking about jodoh stuffs semua . Biasalah perempuan. We dont talk about cars like the boys did. We didnt talk about last night football match either. Or about the latest gadget out in the store. So memang nilah tajuk hot kami . But i dont think i really take that matter in a serious mode , or probably not just yet . Rasa diri macam kecik lagi walaupun dah 20 tahun. Ye yee tahu, orang dulu-dulu belas-belas pon dah kawen. Tapi sekarang ni bukan zaman dulu-dulu lagi .

Ishh , takutttlahh.

ps : next week ada orientation 4 hari before pergi. adoiii.